Another year has passed, and here I am, yet a year further from 1965. The further away I am from 1998 and all those years of losses. The further from the reason I am here, but never further away from the truth. I wish my grandmother hadn’t passed away in 2009. I would ask her […]
On days like these, the flow of air is heavy enough to stop me from thinking, and senses would take over. Even the slightest gesture of tiny utterances would catch me in the deepest hole of wayward nocturne. I wish there are more days like these, more and more and more would take over until […]
I have just been officially initiated into The Order of Cartons. I have got the first cart that I am co-responsible for. I am excited. When I stepped out for water this evening I saw the lady in pink stripes. This brought me to a sentimental flashback session of seeing her dragging her cart down […]
The world is definitely too big. It is too big because I miss my friends on the other side of it, and I know I won’t be able to see them unless their trajectories somehow coincide with mine. And I do miss them. I miss Anita, and I long for a long conversation with her […]
It is funny how I have just learned something that I have been doing since about a year ago. It has just dawned on me that to open a speaker, generally you should open the grill first. I have done it over and over again, each time wondering how, and figuring out that that was […]
And that day, it rained. As though they knew it was the day I would have met you, it rained. I stayed home all day and you did too. The next day, when it finally stopped raining, I went to the station and you were not there. But it didn’t matter because I hadn’t met […]
My brother lives over the ocean. The last time I’ve seen him in person was almost three years ago. He would appear and disappear on Skype, and on Facebook, and we would chat or just turn chat on while he practices his trumpet accompanying me being busy. I believe that one day I will see […]
There was a period in my childhood when I could not stop asking questions. I remember asking these questions mostly to my late father. A period within this period is when I continuously asked questions about death. Not about death per se, but about what could kill a human being. This might have been connected […]
It was late in the day, the plaza was empty. No classes. The canteen was closed, and we were sitting in front of it, just the two of us, watching the horizon. Sunset. You told me you wanted a girlfriend. I told you I wanted a boyfriend. A bit of a discussion that I don’t […]
“Dunia, dunia,” Papa used to sing and sigh out with a smile. I grew up hearing this: the world, the world. Such is the world. He left it with a smile. I remember telling him in his comatose, it’s okay, Pa, Zeno’s just arrived in Jakarta. There might be a delay with his continuing flight, […]