fallen.
When you have fallen, you bring along with you that feeling of falling at the back of your mind. You can feel all the minuscule details of your muscles trying to defy gravity while it’s pulling you onto scratching your…
name.
I envy Ed McGowin, who changed his name twelve times, perhaps without hesitation, or with such a strong determination that nothing could have stood in his way. I don’t know which of the conditions was true for him, but if…
butter.
When you have butterflies in your stomach, do you laugh to let them all out? Do you eat to push them deep in? Do you sing to calm them down low? Do you pray so they hear your say? Do…
the most international artist in the universe.
If I would have been born exactly where I was born — approximately 4400 kilometres away from where I currently reside — but 100 years before, people might have called me a Chinese Dutch East Indian. If I would have been born…
red.
Since a while ago I have begun to notice that whenever I don’t sleep, my eyes became reddish. I don’t think this has ever happened before. Maybe it’s what they call aging.
awake.
I’m still awake. In a few hours from now, I will be awake for more at least more than 24 hours already. I don’t really know for sure how many hours. That’s exactly what happens when you can’t sleep: you…
bruce.
Williams Alfarouk from Sierra Leone has just spammed me an email. He said that he’s writing me from Rep of Cote d’Ivoire where he has been taking refuge after the brutal war and Murder of his parents by the rebels…
insomniac.
Maybe this is not jetlag. Maybe it’s just my childhood coming back to me. I should try to count all the stars. But I counted them all already, and I still couldn’t sleep. My parents, when I was a child,…
by bus.
By bus, Paris was surprising. Take this: This is where Napoleon was buried, Nita told me. She was sitting in front of me, facing me. I looked out the window; I saw a mausoleum-like square building, quite a nice one,…
voice.
Test, one, two, three. This is much easier typed than said. I lost my voice after talking too much about my work. Amsterdam, Groningen, Eindhoven, you name it. So today is a reflection day. I only do test, one, two,…